I have tons of work to do but I am so frustrated that I need a vent session and this is the only acceptable means right now.
- I freaking hate you. Get off your high horse and quit with your attitude. If I didn't need my job you would have gotten bitched out 4 times today... and it's only 9:13am. I'm tired of doing extra work because you're too lazy to do anything yourself. Of all people that have made it through the turnovers, how is it that you are still here? As far as I can tell, nobody likes you. They can't stand you. You are a bitch who thinks she's better than everyone else but in reality they all hate you and talk shit about you behind your back.
- I cannot have a crush on you. It will go nowhere. I've tried putting myself out there but nothing is going to come of it. I've got no chance so why do you keep with the flirty thing? I hate that. Dammit.
I've just flashed back to the movie "He's Just Not That Into You". If a guy likes you, he'll try his damnedest to get with you. I guess that's true of nice guys and dicks, so overall they're the same. My issue comes from me being attracted to the nice guys. The guys who won't hurt your feelings regardless of how they feel (though they'd be with you if they liked you). The guys who lead you on to thinking they do like you. With my low tolerance for pain, I should just be attracted to the dicks. At least when they don't respond or turn you down it's like ripping off a band aid, hurts like hell but it's over quickly. Instead I develop crushes on friends that I know aren't going to go anywhere (because if it was, it would have already). At that point, you're so attached that if it ever does come out in the open and you're really turned down, it's heart wrenching. That hurts like hell for a long long time. I wish that movie had come out a long time ago. I wouldn't have wasted so much time in high school or the following years. I would have had that reality check. That would have been very helpful.
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