Giving up happiness for independence?

I'm about to go look at an apartment. I don't know how much it costs. I don't know if it's nice. I don't know if I can fully afford it. I DO know that if I don't get out soon I'm going to turn into a person I don't want to be. I try very hard to not be the bitchy daughter. I've passed that phase. I'm the good daughter that helps out with bills and is nice to the younger ones. The bitchy one is driving me insane though.

I might have to settle for only a half season for the next two years to get out though and that depresses me more than anything. I'm sure I'd end up buying enough games to get me to the 30 game mark through the season but that is my joy in life right now. I can't imagine not being at the game. It'd probably be best to only tie myself down to a half but I've never been good at doing the "best" thing but rather doing my own thing.

I want to be able to hang pictures and sleep in my own place and put my Canada and Philly magnets on my fridge. I want it to be mine. We'll see, I guess. I'm not going to give up on a full season just yet. If I have to give in to PP&J and water for the eternity, I will.

EDIT:
I didn't want to write a whole new thing, just an update. I looked at one place today and I love the location and surrounding area. It's older but not bad... especially for the price. My plan is to make rent payments to my savings account for a few months to prove I can live without having that money in hand and then be more serious around the July-August time frame. Now I just have to survive Kristen for a few more months...