Cry baby

As I've already made clear, I don't cry... but at 5:30ish this morning I woke up in tears and couldn't stop and it's over something so stupid! Assuming I didn't forget any parts of my dream (which is entirely possible), I was crying because hockey season is coming to an end and because I can't afford to buy a second ticket to bring a family member to if we make the playoffs. I know. Pathetic.

This team has become such a staple in my life that I'm seriously not looking forward to this summer. I've always hated the summer anyway but now there's even more reason to. Next year I'm getting a full season for myself and probably buying a half to bring others to. It sucks that the way things worked out with Kristen. I honestly have the best time when she's there. We feed off of each other and it makes for a great time regardless of the score. The second we get back in the car it all changes to her being a bitch and me not willing to deal with her but for that short 3-4 hour period (the ride there isn't bad) we're friends. Best friends. The way we were when we started going 2 1/2 years ago. I know I talk about hating her quite often but I miss having her as my best friend. We've grown up together and regardless of how things worked out in our family it was always us sticking together against the masses. We've been through a lot in our short lives and it sucks that she's not willing to share the new parts of it with me. It hurts because I always imagined anyone that we found ourselves with would be close with the other one. I guess that's not going to be the case.

And now I'm crying again, I guess the season ending wasn't all of it.